I have been hibernating. I have been running away from myself trying to find an excuse not to be me. For the last several months I have contemplated so many things. Should I continue to write? Do I have an audience? Does what I do matter? All of these self defeating thoughts consumed my mind for months and they kept me in a hub of relational despair. I disconnected wanting to find a reason to do me all over again …the right way. I soul searched and found out that the core of me was rotten and needed serious repair. I saw the hidden spaces of my life where people left or I kicked them (people in my life) to the curb. A more recent relationship disconnect left me devestated and wondering whether I had the guts to resurface back into the face of life.
Friends, we go through seasons of our lives where things simply don’t make sense. The crazy thing about life is that we can not correct what we are not conscious of. When the truth surfaces one must have a safety net to fall back on — or you will fall out of life. In raw honesty, I dropped out of life because I did not know who I was and what I really wanted to offer the world. It took me three months just to write that. Smiling. No matter the course, life is created with twist and turns designed to bring you to a path of greatness. The beautiful element of this revelation is that you have the power to choose. Today, I choose to wake up from my hibernation, write and just deliver raw honesty. Thank you.